Searching For The Meaning of Life: My Journey As A Millennial

The Race Between Earn and Spend

In a world where life feels like an endless race to earn more, spend more, and somehow be more. I’ve often found myself asking a question that many human being before me have pondered: What is the meaning of life? Is it about accumulating wealth? Reaching a dream destination? Or is it something entirely different?

I’v a confusion that may be we’ve mistaken the finish line for the starting point. As a millennial who grew up in a capitalist society, I was no exception. From the tender age of 19, I stepped into the working world with big dreams: make loads of money, buy a house, own a sleek car, and—magically—happiness would follow.

Spoiler alert: it didn’t!

Just a night before my 29th birthday, after a long, chaotic day, I came back home and found myself sitting on the couch, lost in thought. I started reflecting on my life, the road I’d already traveled, and the experiences I’d had. Honestly, it wasn’t a pleasant journey to revisit.

I looked around my apartment, and it felt like a mirror of my life—completely chaotic. My study table had stopped being a place for studying; it had become a landfill of snack wrappers and empty coffee cups. My gym membership card sat in a drawer, untouched for months, silently mocking me. Staring at the ceiling, a thought hit me like a punch to the gut: “What am I even doing with my life?”

The Millennial Life Crisis: Chasing an Illusion

I started my career with the belief that once I earned "enough," life would finally begin. But what is enough? It’s a moving target, like trying to grasp the horizon—it looks close, but you can never reach it. I sacrificed time, energy, and relationships, hoping to secure a future. But alas! that future remained distant no matter how hard I worked.

Ten years later, I had checked many boxes—stable income, financial independence(kind of)—but the fulfillment I expected never arrived. It was then moment when I realized that the meaning of life isn’t something you achieve; it’s something you create every day.

The Nudge

One seemingly ordinary day, I passed by a boxing club on my way to work. Watching young boys train remind me a childhood dream. The dream which I had long abandoned—to train, to build strength, to feel alive in my own body. I had some immuno-physical issues back then; that's why the achievement of physical strength was so lucrative for me. I had spent years postponing my dreams for someday. But now I'm scared that what if that day never came?

That moment hit me harder than I expected. I wasn’t just neglecting a hobby; I was ignoring life itself. I had spent years on autopilot, chasing goals that society told me were important. But to fulfill society's goal, I am losing sight of what truly matters to me.

The Wake-Up Call

That boxing club wasn’t just a nudge; it was a slap in the face. For a decade, I had worked hard and earned decently, but my life was messy—inside and out. My apartment reflected my priorities, or lack thereof. My health had taken a backseat to everything else.

I realized I wasn’t alone in this. Many of my peers were in the same boat: busy but not productive. earning but not saving. connected on social media but disconnected in real life. We were stuck in a cycle of doing rather than being. chasing rather than living.

Redefining Life’s Meaning

On my 29th birthday, I made a promise to stop living for a distant future and start living now. Instead of seeing life as a straight path leading to a single point of success, I began viewing it as a journey—a journey to be embraced, not just endured.

I took small but significant steps: I started organizing my apartment, creating a space that reflected clarity instead of chaos. I reconnected with hobbies that brought me joy. I prioritized relationships, knowing that the people in my life held far more meaning than any financial milestone ever could.

Why This Blog Exists?

The meaning of life isn’t about reaching a perfect destination; it’s about finding balance, discovering joy in small moments, and understanding that fulfillment comes from the journey itself. Through this blog, I want to share my experiences and insights, offering guidance to those who, like me, have felt lost in the endless race of modern life.

If you’ve ever questioned the purpose of it all, struggled with the millennial life crisis, or wondered, what’s the meaning of life, know that you’re not alone. Let’s explore these questions together, uncovering not just what life should be, but what it can be when we redefine success on our own terms.

Let’s Walk This Path Together

Life isn’t about waiting for happiness to arrive—it’s about building it in the present. My journey to understanding the meaning of life has only just begun, and I invite you to walk this path with me. Let’s take small, intentional steps toward a life that is truly fulfilling, not by chasing an illusion, but by embracing the beauty of the now.

Are you ready to start searching for the meaning of life? Let’s figure it out together.

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